This is going to be a self awareness blog consisting of recipes, talk about workout, and inspirational ideas. I am leaving it open to the public because I hope it will become useful tool for others, and I really hope to meet like minded people to talk about this stuff with! Jump right in reading, or start at the introduction.  Again, welcome. 

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Troubled Waters

This weekend has been tough. I thought I was most of the way there already, so why would completely vegetarian almost vegan be an issue? 2 weeks into being more aware of my diet, I really crashed today into a sweets binge. I have been missing something from my diet to have had such a horrendous eating day. I am almost ashamed to blog about it.

I think it might be protein. Protein gives you a different more sustained energy than carbohydrates, which is better for energy dip controlling (blah blah blah we all know.. haha). Looking back on these past weeks: I ran out of soy milk and tofu early last week. So, its been maybe a couple of servings of beans total. Oops.

I had issues leaving the house due to my back, I felt bad spending money, I wanted to avoid the processed meat replacers. I.. I... excuses! I need to take care of myself! I caved and bought some of those boca (vegan) and morning star burgers (spicy black bean) tonight, as well as replenishing my stock of soymilk and tofu (on sale?!). I boiled a huge pot of beans to jar and have available for the week. Go me! Hopefully next week will go better.
I found some interesting articles on how to make sure you get enough protein and how protein is available in plant form (a discussion of incomplete vs complete and complimenting proteins). I liked this article because finding protein was one thing I was worried about when I started cutting out yogurt and fish. Especially because I like to work out. I super liked this graph I found article at savvyvegetarian.com (I'm a visual person :P):

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Bikram and Beans

Yesterday I finally made it to my Bikram Yoga class. It was fantastic! Definitely what I needed. The schedule didn’t turn out as anticipated because my back seized up on Monday and I needed to take care of (i.e rest) that. I am planning on sticking to yoga for a while. My runner’s knee is acting up because I am walking weird due to the back issue. 
The great things about the class:
  • I sweat A LOT. Got a lot of those toxins/pain relievers out of my system. I wore long sleeves and pants on purpose to create more sweating. Most people in the class did not (as an fyi).
  •  I got a deeper stretch into the muscle that has been seizing. I had to be very careful and come out of a few poses to make sure I didn’t end up hurting myself. (yay self aware!)

The “downside”:
  • Not like typical yoga. The poses are more balance poses, slow and deliberate. I sort of wanted a tight stretch of my IT band and I didn’t get that during the class
  • Plan to shower and change after class! Last time I went it was in May so I just went home to shower. It was 15*F outside... my mistake…

Usually I do yoga at home, using different DVDs as guidance or a book. This is actually the first time I bought a mat, so I better start going to classes more often! I am excited to see what other Bikram classes this studio offers during my introductory unlimited yoga trial period.

Oh! Also I made navy beans! I didn’t realize how much work beans are (new cook in the kitchen!). I soaked them for 2 days (longer than usual soaking) and thought it would be like 45 minutes to done? WRONG, 2 hours later, still crunchy-ish beans. Here’s my new “go get em” plan, soak and boil MANY beans, then jar the cooked beans. If you jar them right away and put them in the fridge while they are still hot the air seal will form. I have a jar full of semi-crunchy, perfectly seasoned and stored beans in my fridge for use when I need a quick dinner supplement. :)

oh and I realized I said that those cookies were vegan, embarrassing. I don't think that OTC chocolate is vegan most of the time because it involves a butter base. I'll do better next time. 

Monday, January 25, 2010


I baked baked baked all Sunday. I am not usually a baker, but I'm starting to love "healthy" baking because I can substitute and edit recipes. Anyone who knows me, will tell you- I cannot follow instruction :-P

Protein oatmeal bars (these are a work in the making) 

3.5 cups quick oats
1.5 cups powered non-fat milk
5 scoops vanilla protein powder 
1/2 cup sugar free maple syrup
1/2 cup maple syrup
8 oz silken tofu
1/4 cup fruit juice
2 egg whites
2 cups chocolate chips
bake 40 minutes at 325 *F 
makes: 18 bars in a 9x12

I edited the recipe I found on eHow a lot, and it still needs some work. I didnt like using sugar free maple syrup, because the ingredients list is horrendous (length and content). So I compromised, because the real maple syrup ups the calories like crazy. This recipe should yield close to 200 calories, 12 g protein, 20 g carbohydrates, 1.5 g fat for each bar. In the picture, I used old fashioned oats, I changed the recipe to reflect my lesson :)

Banana Fun Clumps (my own creation) 

3 bananas, mashed
1/3 cup vegetable shortening 
1 tsp vanilla
1/3 cup chopped prunes
1/4 cup shredded unsweetened coconut
1 cup chocolate chips
 20-25 minutes at 350 *F 
makes: about a 20 depending on the size 

Let the dough sit for ~30 minutes before you start to form the balls. I balled up about 1/2-1 inch size balls and lightly patted them down. I covered the cookie sheet with aluminum foil. 

Now, none of these fit into my new semi macro diet (though the cookies are vegan) so I didn't keep any. I am going to hot yoga tonight to help purify what is ailing me. I think I remember Brikram is an Indian form of yoga, done in a sauna. It helps your body sweat and eliminate toxins. I like it a lot but I haven't had time to get into it regularly. There is a local place running a new years special- "20 dollars unlimited 2 weeks yoga". So I am going to hit that up! I might try a "detox" massage on Wednesday I will keep all of you updated as it goes!

Saturday, January 23, 2010


Hi :) I am trying to find a balance this year. I am a high energy high anxiety type girl and I thought I had a good thing going. I was running pretty far and pretty often, eating what I wanted and still shedding pounds. I have a fantastic boyfriend, great dog, stable job. Then the 2009 holidays hit! :O

Now I am not one for "new years resolutions" and "going with the crowd" so I guess, this blog will be the search for something that is a balanced ME this year. Things that pushed me to this recreation were:

  • recurrent runner's knee
  • a back injury
  • gaining 4 lbs over the holidays
  • becoming embarrassed of my chocolate binges (thats when you know something is weird, when you don't want to tell anyone what you did!)
  • frequent constipation (TMI! sorry!)
  • I shouldn't be falling apart at 23!

Here is the plan, you can follow along as you please and I promise to post fun inspiring pictures, because I think they help me when I read other people's blogs.

  • get back into running, HEALTHY.- I have PT on Monday, I am suspect of my shoes -_-
  • get into another side sport, for balance (eh? eh?) - potentially yoga
  • be more conscious of my diet- Currently I am looking into some macrobiotic ideas, vegan, and whole foods. 
  • learn to project a positive attitude onto others, even if I am emotionally exhausted.- I wear myself on my sleeve and anyone around me usually gets my anger/sadness/frustration taken out on them. Its a circle, because then they get upset with me... etc, etc.